You down with BFP? Yeah you know me.

The fastest ever beta results came in at 10:22 a.m. R and I had decided that we would wait until tonight so we could listen to the message together. In the end we met in Central Park at 12:30. I could not stand it any longer. We listened to the message and both burst into tears. We were a tourist attraction. It was neat.

ok. wow. I'm pregnant. Beta # was 522 at 11dp5dt. With Tess and Oliver my beta was 322 at 11d3dt. The number isn't as high, as it's technically two days later, but it is strong and solid. I'll take it. Next week, same bat time same bat channel, will be beta #2 and we're hoping for good doubling numbers every 48 hours til then.

Honestly I woke up this morning and felt so blah. I hadn't gotten up to pee in the night and I, of course, read way too much into that. I considered stopping in Karabela's for a little roach love before heading to the clinic.

The nurse took my blood and then I asked about the cryo report. No one had called to tell me how many embies made it to freezing. "None." she said with what seemed like a smile. I barely made it out of there before falling to pieces. I walked to work and cried the whole 30+ blocks. Poor R was blindsided by a blubbering wife on a cell phone. But he talked me off the ledge like he always does, bless that man of mine.

Rolyn kept reminding me all day the forecast on NPR for today was "Cloudy in the morning with Sunshine in the afternoon." Dammit if he wasn't right. :)

Deep breaths and little steps. It's a long way to forty weeks...but we're hoping to make it there day by day.

***11dp5dt + 11 days past a 5 day transfer (ivf#3)
***11dp3dt + 11 days past a 3 day transfer (ivf#1)